Letting Go, to Let God

Unfortunately over the course of my life, I’ve wavered in my relationship with the Lord. I recall from an early age I would say, why lord? Why is this happening to me? Why are my parents on drugs? Why does no one love me… not even you? I would angry with God. I would be so angry with him for what was happening to me in my life as a child and teenager. I struggled for years, decades even to find some rhyme or reason for all the awful crap that what was happening to me. It took me sooooo many long years…. through Tearfulness, sadness, confusion, frustration… the significant loss of loved ones, neglect, abandonment, abuse of all kinds…it took me seeking out the hidden meanings within the pain and hurt that allowed the true meaning of my life experiences to reveal themselves. Now, let me be clear, self-discovery and uncovering what is not easily revealed is quite a task. But a task worth exploring and employing if your goal is to finally let go to let God. Through my process of unearthing the hidden meanings beyond the hurt and pain, I’ve found truth, comfort, solace. And it is my hope that through todays explorative writing exercises, you too can begin your process for letting go and letting God. When you begin to lean into the eves and flows of life no matter how upsetting, no matter how challenging, through radical acceptance you too can let go and let God. With this idea in mind, I challenge you to examine the areas of your life that are or have been most upsetting to you. I am introducing the journal prompt explorative questions here but you can find them noted below as well. As you examine these areas of your life, try to search within and bring to mind what upset you the most about that challenging time in your life? Once you have the idea, memory, thought, or feeling that you have identified… sit with it. Let it fill your heart, your mind, your spirit. And ask yourself the question either aloud or in your head, can I let go of this? If you can let go, ask yourself why or how? If you can’t let go at this time, ask yourself, what is within my control to allow me to begin to move toward a place of letting this go? I encourage you use the questions above to explore and to revisit this exercise at least two if not three times within a given month. The more we, as Black Women can reflect on the purpose and power of letting go and leaving it to God, the more we can heal internal untouched wounds that we have allowed to remain unhealed. So, get to healing Black a woman cause you damn sure deserve it!

If you are a Black Woman Healing and you have subscribed to the bonus content, Check out this weeks guided meditation, “Letting Go is also Self-Love.”

Reflective Journal Prompt:

Challenge yourself to examine the areas of your life that are or have been most upsetting to you. If at least one or two come to mind please write them down. Write down what upset or upsets you the most about this challenging time in your life? What made this time in your life so difficult, so life scattering? Really dig in here, let the emotions overcome you. Do not leave anything unsaid.

Now, ask yourself the question either aloud or in your head, can I let go of this? If you can let go, ask yourself why or how you can let go. If you can’t let go at this time, ask yourself, what is within your control that will allow you to begin to move toward a place of letting this go? (As noted in the blog post, I encourage you to come back to this post and journal about it at least 2 or 3 times in a given month).

In Peace,

A Black Woman Healing Too…

Guided Meditation: The Silver Linings of Letting Go

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